A triangular paranoid by nature where, insanity is always at its best.. Always afraid to loose control. Always in dilemma. Rather a person who loves to put himself in dire-straight.
Surprizingly i always had exactly 3 solutions for any problem in life , whether in education or life as whole.
And the best part is that, all solutions came up to me equally appealing.
"So what is Jilawatan? I am asking something to you ,akash. Define Jilawatan? I am sure as always you are not in a state to answer this also"
This is what happens everytime and always when somone, all of a sudden ask somthing for which i am just not ready to answer.
I go blank. Like a dead meat, i am frozen. Then it feels someone has crushed my inner confidence with his 24 wheeled trolley. Moreover i feel sad about myself . Come-on buddy ,"How can one question traumatize me?" i ask.
I then look inside me. I Introspect myself, reassess. Put across ten thousand questions to myself. And i am again stuck , with no answer in my mind. I feel broken.
Just within seconds after this questionnaire session, a ripple of "AAL IS WELL" thought occurs. Thats exactly where a second type of me i encounter, who is pretty confident, aggressive (p.s not violent streak type) and who hardly cares about the past or future. In short who put aside past and future , and enjoy the present by taking it as a present and NOT putting one leg over past , one over future and peeing on present.
Thats me , thats JILAWATAN Inside.
Now define Jilawatan?
Jilawatan is a person/soul/entity/thought/object who/which counters the gloomy part of my life with a new ray of hope. A hope to strive, rather to strive for excellence , then staying hopeful for utopia , in a way that success and happiness will come its way as ancillary or as a matter of supplement.
And yes "Jilawatan is my creation" , being created 6 years back. So no need to google : If googled U'l only come to know about a Paki band :P \m/
Cheers !!!!
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10 comments:
Nice blog jallu!
gr8 start man!!
neva had a chat wid u aft skool!!
n i think wat changes happened up in u ws aft skool nly!! n dats gr8..
cheers to ur JILAWATAN!!
waiting for more reads frm u!!
a very cool word created by you.."jilawatan" fantastic blog...good...
heya..
your blog jilawatan is reallynice.. especially the concepyt.. its wat everyone of us feelss..and u have beautifully penned it down in words,... great goin.. lookin forward toread more of ur blogss
@above all..
Thank you for sparing out your worthy time.. and giving it a view.
cheers!!!
I wish you could be less self-conscious and try putting yourself out there as yourself, someone who I somehow feel through your words is way more interesting than your blog(atleast the first attempt). Jilatwatan....NICE! :)
Hey Jallu i finally went thru ur blog... N yes its awesome, cool, Innovative n many more adjectives ahead..
N yes a gr8 effort to start wit..
Keep rocking as always.. hope to c more like dis in future..
TC
Thanks hitesh for those adjectives...
Chuckk de !!!
Cool man. As a reverberation of most comments posted here - it's a very good start for a new blog. Welcome to blog-o-sphere!
Anurag Bhandari
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